Saturday morning at 8 a.m., I ran 3.1 miles, or 5 km. I finished working my way through “Couch to 5k” by running a 5k.
About a half-mile into the journey, I thought, This is it; I’ve actually done it. I’ve stuck with this to see it through, even though it’s taken me quite a while and even though it’s not been easy. Tears came into my eyes.
You see, that’s not my personality style at all. Persistence in things for which I have no natural inclination–I usually avoid that. Persistence in things where I cannot readily be at the top of the game–I usually avoid that, too. I’ve spent a lot of my life doing the things I’m good at, doing them well, and—whether out of embarrassment or fear— eschewing the rest when possible. But no more.
Running has helped me learn to stay the course. Before running, learning to manage my finances and gradually work toward financial goals put me on the path. Along with running, I’ve been learning, this year, to eat judiciously, give myself lots of loving kindness, and accept weight loss as a slow, gradual path as well. So much of life works that way, and there is so much I miss out on when I don’t accept that many things worth doing take time and energy (things I may not be good at even when I give them time and energy, but which are worthwhile anyway).
I came through the finish line after at least 2/3 of the people had gone through. I came through just after a couple who ran while they pushed a baby stroller, for Pete’s sake! But I ran the 5k, and I finished it, and what’s what matters.
And I’m plotting a 3-mile run for Tuesday morning, too. Now that I know the extent of what I can do, I’m going to keep doing it.
At the end of the run, my proud husband asked me, “Is there anyone you want to call?” But I couldn’t think of anyone I felt it was just imperative to call right away, because I didn’t do it to impress anyone else. I did it to impress myself. I’m glad—I’m excited—to tell y’all, because I know lots of you have been on the same path or are on it now, but this was about me.
And I did it.